The end

I feel pain,
Both inside and outside,
For far too long,
I've live under an illusion.

You have been very kind,
And due to your kindness,
I choose to live with hope,
Hope that I created myself.
Maybe I got it wrong.

Maybe it wasn't what you wanna give me,
Who knows?
I never regret having such a beautiful dream.
But one day,
the dream must end.
I must wake up.

I said I won't end a beautiful dream,
But today I think I will this hope.
For I created this hope.
I shall end it then.

I know my heart will bleed.
But who cares?
Would you choose for a short but intense pain?
Or a long and slow pain?

I have no right or whatsoever to deserve any pity,
for I brought this upon myself.
I shall reap what I sow,
I don't need pity.

Maybe some of you think its not such a big deal,
Yeah, it probably isn't.
But you're not me.
You won't know don't you?

No one can be me.
And no one can be you.

I just realize how wrong I can be,
And how right everyone else can be.

I need to thank everyone who told me so,
I shall thank you for that beautiful scar.
I might thank myself for what I did today.

I didn't give up,
Not now, not anywhere.
But I don't want a hope,
I don't need a hope.
A dream shall belong a dream.
Nothing more I guess.
Things took a quick turn.
I think my body have told me so.
Its time to stop
How much more do you think you can take?
Maybe for once,
I shall listen to myself.

I shall pray again.
I pray I took the right choice.
This shall end today.