Hey

"Hey Mary, John seems to be sad."

"Don't worry Rene, if he has any problem, he can talk to you."

"I guess you're right, but what about me?"


I guess this sums up everything.

Chase

I was chasing that dream.
When everyone has deserted me,
I continue in hot pursuit.
Or at least I thought I was.

Till it finally end.
I awoke from it.
For it was not the dream I was chasing.
I was chasing an answer.
For it had eluded me far too long.

As I cling on to my pride.
I swallow all my sorrow.
Letting loose all my pain would mean chaos.
I withstand all those laughter
Brought upon me by myself.

For I chase the wrong thing.
I will not run.
You should be running.

From now on,
I shall not chase.
I shall let life come to me.
Passive as ever.
This shall be me.

Lies

What am I holding on to?
I see things.
Things which are lies.
No matter how hard we try.
We lie.

Maybe it's better that way.
That we should live in our own bubble.
I lied to let you go.
You lied to get me going.
That was the perfect scenario.

Who wants to lie?
But life itself is a lie.
Lie itself has life.
I know by now.
Yet many live in ignorance.

If it really needs a lie to make you live well,
I ask you why not?
For you live you life.
Along with your lie.

I can see lies around me.
I see far more than you think I can.
I am smarter than I look.
Yet, I'm still the better liar.
We play a dangerous game.
I have no plans of stopping.

Maybe I'm fed up

Maybe this...
Maybe that...
why is there so many maybe in my life?
maybe that's life?

How many times do I need to do this?
How many lies must I tell?
How much time do I need?

Seriously, I'm quite fed up...
I'm fed up with myself already...

Smile kills

I just realized how lonely I am.
Or rather how lonely I can be.
Why is it that way?
Why is it that when I have problems?
I couldn't find people to talk to?
Do I not trust them?
Or maybe I just wasn't serious?

I noticed.
That when I tell my problems,
I would either be crying or smiling.
I don't cry often.
Maybe that's why people don't take me seriously?
Who would when I tell them I have problem and I'm smiling there?