Lone moon

If I have anything stolen from me,
I guess it would be my heart that she has stolen from me.
If it would be that many things that I have done for someone,
I guess it would be what I’ve done and what I would have done for her.
If I ever can turn back the time,
I would maybe turn back the time where I loathed you.
If I ever wanted anything more,
I want my feelings back.

I must admit,
I can like anyone easily,
but for me to really fall for someone,
I fell for her.
Maybe it was my off day,
maybe today is my off day.
Why did I even start writing this?
Just so that I can remember her?

Did you think I want to live like a zombie?
Reminding myself everyday to forget about her.
Ha, the irony.
Reminding myself to forget something.
Technology made it easy for us these days.
I can know how’s she’s been lately.
Then I know, blocking of someone is easy.
To get someone else to block you is the hard part.

Just when I thought I can forget,
I reminded myself to forget!
To be honest, I never cried for her.
I thought I didn’t take this whole thing seriously,
if not, why wouldn’t there be tears?
Or had I harden my heart so much that it didn’t matter anymore?
Then why?
Just why would I had myself go through all this?
Just why would I sit around that corner, withstanding the cold?

If I rate those friendships based on how much my best friends hurt me.
Should I value her the same way?
How awesome she can have me question so many things.
It’s just those things that isn’t what she wants to do to me but it did to me.
Thanks to her, I appreciate my mornings more.
Maybe it’s because that was the only Friday morning that rain made it so special.

I really don’t want to reveal too much.
I don’t want any of you to keep guessing.
But I know, those who cares don’t really come here.

If I ever wanna blame anything for tonight, I want to blame the stars.
Or maybe the moon, for making the night so lonely.