Obligation to sacrifice

Did you know?
My real interest is in psychology.
But then I can't really spell it right.
Maybe that's because I never really gave it a chance.
I'm just too afraid.
Too many things held me back,
So I can only brag,
but not doing anything I can.

No doubt I choose how my life.
But I can help others from influencing me.
When I read my lessons now,
Half the time I didn't listen.
Looking at the notes,
I thought to myself,
I can understand all this if I want to.
But when it really matters,
I can't find any motivation at all.

Life isn't always fair to us.
I understand it is a cycle.
My parents might have given up their dreams
Instead of their dream job,
they choose to get a well paid job.
All they want is for us to live better.
And the cycle goes.
We are expected to do the same for our future.
Maybe this cycle is meant for someone to break,
Like our preparation is for our future generation to pursue their dream job.
But when is the right generation?
That's why the cycle goes on.

Given the chance,
I would like to break that cycle,
But who have that faith that he can be successful?
Can I say I would love psychology?
Can I be sure I would do great?
No
Instead I have to choose the safer road.
I knew I would regret this in the future.
But putting myself in my parents shoes.
Don't they just sacrifice for us?
I have this obligation to sacrifice myself for my future generation.

We have to look at some picture.
And so I guess till I really accept fate.
That's what I hope for.
Not my dreams.
Just my acceptance.