My nature

"How can I blame others when I myself did the same thing?"


I was so afraid,
That feeling of being abandoned,
Left there all alone.

I always think,
What if they don't talk to me anymore?
Will I be forgotten?
What should I do?

In the end,
When I look back at myself,
I realized,
I did not put in the same effort too.

I'm sorry for those who have left us,
It was not my nature to make the first move,
It's always not me.

Maybe you all expected me to at least care,
But it just felt awkward for me to do so,
I always ask myself,
What if they are busy?
What if they don't feel like talking?

Now that I realized,
That's what that kills friendships,
I can feel those things happening to me now.
But I can't blame others now,
Not that I know what I did for now,
May have just come back to haunt me.

I'm sorry,
For not showing that I cared.